The D Spot

Do you remember playing Truth or Dare when you were a teenager?  What did you prefer, telling a truth or accepting the challenge of a dare?

To be completely honest, I was afraid of both, which is probably why I avoided this game at all costs growing up.  And all through my marriage I found myself still avoiding both of these options.

But divorce changed all that; it tends to do that.  Moving through and forward after divorce is the fastest way to conquer your fear of speaking your truth and daring to do what you have never done before.

Lately I have been thinking a lot about all the ways that we allow fear to hold us back from what we want and are meant to do.  And I have decided that I will no longer allow it to prevent me from experiencing what I want in my life.

Last weekend I did something that I have wanted to do for a long time but have always made excuses as to why I couldn’t do it.  I participated in my first Warrior Dash.  The Warrior Dash is an obstacle run.  It is a 5K run with about 10 obstacle challenges along the course.

While I take care of myself and am pretty fit, the thought of the Warrior Dash was a little intimidating for me.  And yet, at the same time, it has always looked like something really fun to do.  So in the spring, I posted a call to action on my facebook page to see if anyone would like to do it with me. To be honest, I got a lot of people telling me how fun it looked; but I did not get many who wanted to commit to doing it with me.  Despite the lack of commitment by others, I wasn’t going to give up.

Eventually, a lovely woman who I went to high school with jumped in and said she would love to join; we hadn’t really connected in almost 20 years and I was delighted to seize this opportunity!  Then, a friend and colleagues said she would love to join as well.  By the end of the summer we had six women on our team, three that I had never met before.  We decided to name our team, Dash Divas.

So last weekend, I found myself standing at the Starting Line of my first Warrior Dash with my six Dash Divas, all of us doing something scary for the first time.  And it was a blast!

We were nervous, and excited, and committed to finishing together…leaving no woman behind!  Here we are crossing the finish line!!

I was so proud of myself, so proud of us.  Daring to do something we have all wanted to do;  challenging ourselves to fight through our nerves and our fear!

Life during and after divorce is full of opportunities to dare ourselves to live the life we imagine, and deserve; if we choose to see those opportunities and take advantage of them.

It can be comfortable to stay where we are, even if it is not where we really want to be.  Moving forward is uncomfortable and frightening, but everything you want is on the other side of fear.  And the only way to get there is to step out of your comfort zone.

So, I dare you.

 I dare you to do something you have always wanted to do.

I dare you to look for opportunities that scare you, and to face your fear and do it anyway.

I dare you to be uncomfortable, knowing that what you really want is on the other side of it.

I dare you to speak your truth.

I dare you to push yourself harder than anyone else will.

I dare you to be vulnerable and scared, we all are.

I dare you to take risks, because you will grow from them.

I dare you to let go of what was, because your future is waiting for you.

I dare you to open yourself up to new friends, new experiences and new love.

I dare you to ask for the support you deserve.

I dare you to express your desires out loud.

I dare you do just one thing every day that moves you towards the life you imagine.

I dare you to be YOU…because you are magnificent; you are brilliant, bold and courageous beyond measure.

Together, just like me and my Dash Divas, we will boldly move forward, leaving no woman behind.

You are not alone.  We are in this together!

What is it that keeps us working so hard for the friendships and intimate, love relationship that we so desperately desire?

Over the years I have witnessed hundreds of women who are working harder than ever at friendships and relationships that are depleting them of energy, enthusiasm and inspiration.   And yet, despite recognizing that these relationships are exhausting and exasperating, they continue to try harder to do more, be more and say more.

At some point, the exhaustion, frustration and depletion becomes more than they can bear and something momentous happens, changing the relationship forever.

Perhaps it is an affair.  That becomes the catalyst for the ending of a marriage that was not healthy to begin with.

 Perhaps there a fight of epic proportions for which things are said that can never be taken back.

 Or perhaps there is silence.  A silence so great that the hole that is left creates emotions that will take years to heal.

By the time this happens, the wounds are so deep and so painful; they require extreme care to heal.  And usually, the relationship can’t recover from them.

Divorce is often the result of what is not said and done, rather than what is said and done; although many would argue differently.  And by the time a woman comes to me for support, it is hard to get clarity around what she really wants to say…or, wanted to say; wishes she had said.

The same holds true, by the way, for friendships.  There are often parallels between what happens in divorce and what happens in the demise of a close friendship.

Why is this?

Well, if we aren’t saying what we really want and need to say, our partner/friends can’t hear what we really want and need them to hear.

It is not much more complicated than that.

You see, here is the simple truth.  You don’t have to be, do or say anything special to be loved.  Nope.  You just have to be YOU.

Honest you.

Authentic you.

Compassionate you.

Loving you.

Direct you.

Kind you.

Beautiful you.

 YOU…are enough.

You don’t have to buy sexy clothes. You don’t have to prepare fancy meals.  You don’t have to clean your house top to bottom.  Nor do you have to sacrifice your goals, your dreams, your desires or your interests to express your love and devotion.

You…the raw truth of who you are, is perfectly enough. 

Love is meant to be shared, from the inside out.  It is not meant to be earned, bought or judged.  It is simply meant to be felt and shared.

When you find yourself in a relationship or friendship that is causing you to work hard to do, be or say anything that doesn’t feel authentic to who you are, it is time to come clean.  It is time to say what needs to be said and allow the relationship to grow…or fade.

While this is not an easy thing to do, it is what will lead you to freedom.

Freedom to be the YOU that you are meant to be!

Effortless, extraordinary love.

We all want it.

We all deserve it.

So, why don’t we all have it?

How did you react today when you read the title of this post?

Did you say to yourself, “there is no such thing as effortless love”?  Or did you roll your eyes, snort and say, “I am done with this relationship and love thing”?

Or, did you quietly say to yourself, “I want to be in love, feel love and experience effortless love, but I don’t even know where to begin”.

Divorce, the end of a profound and significant love relationship, while it feels like an end, is really the beginning of a journey towards attracting, creating, embracing and enjoying effortless, extraordinary love.

So, why don’t we all have this kind of love in our lives? 

Because we aren’t ready for it.

I don’t mean that you don’t want it. Deserve it. Or are capable of it.  What I mean is that there is far more involved in preparing for it than most people understand.

Being ready for effortless, extraordinary love means living an effortless, extraordinary life.

What happens for so many individuals is that they try to find love before they are ready.  As a result, they may find themselves in a relationship that is not healthy, and one that inevitably, does not work out.  In their eyes this further validates that true love doesn’t exist and now seems even more impossible.  Have you ever felt this way?

So what does being “ready” for love mean?

Here are five indicators that you are ready for effortless and extraordinary love:

• You are honest and clear on what you “must have” and “must never have” in your ideal relationship.

While most of us believe we know exactly what we want in a relationship, the reality is that we don’t really have clarity around what we must have and must never have.

And it is not always what it seems.

For example, in one of my Love Chats this past week, a woman shared that on her “list of five” criteria, she would like a man that is within five years of her age.  After further conversation and exploration, what we discovered is that age is not really a “must have” for her, but rather that at her age and stage, having more children is something that she “must never have”.  Age is not a deal breaker, but dating someone who wants children, is.

Often we are not honest about our truths, and as we date; we mold, bend and excuse the very things that will cause the deterioration of the relationship over time.  Being ready means knowing the truth of what you need and want in your ideal relationship.

• You enjoy dating and “kissing lots of frogs”!

Finding your ideal relationship can happen at any time and at any place.  However, if you are not living a life that allows you to interact with potential partners, it is going to be difficult to find one.

You will need to put yourself in situations and environments where you can interact with people all the time and you will need to be open to and excited about meeting them.

I love men.  Even after my divorce, I never stopped loving, enjoying and attracting men.  As a matter of fact, I also love people and am curious about human behavior.  So for me, spending time dating was fun.  Regardless of whether or not they were “the one”, I always enjoyed the process of getting to know someone new.  As a result, I am still friends today with a number of the men I dated, even if just for one date.

Getting to know a prospective partner and beginning a new relationship is one that requires curiosity, time and shared experiences.  It doesn’t happen overnight and is the repeated enjoyment of spending time together.

If you are aggravated by the dating process, frustrated with how long it is taking, or bitter about the opposite sex; you are probably not ready to build a new, exceptional relationship.

• You live a life of passion and purpose.

Are you happy?  Do you enjoy your life?  Part of creating an extraordinary relationship is sharing the joys of your life with someone new and allowing them to share their joyful life with you.

Effortless relationships do NOT include the responsibility of making each other happy.  Happiness is found within, and then shared with each other.  It is in the sharing of passions and purpose that juicy joy is created.

If you are not living a life you love, filled with passion and purpose; the likelihood of attracting a relationship that makes you happy is slim.  For those individuals who seek a partner that will fulfill them and make them happy, it is disappointing when a new relationship deteriorates for “no good reason”.

That is not to say that in an extraordinary relationship both people don’t enhance the joy and happiness in each other lives, because that is part of what makes it so fabulous; but one is not the sole source of happiness for the other.

If you are not already living a life you love, you are not yet ready.

• You have healthy and happy relationships with your friends and family.

Usually individuals who have an extraordinary love relationship, also have happy and healthy relationships with the other people in their lives.

Back in November I wrote about the wonderful quote, “How you do anything is how you do everything”.   There is no situation for which this applies more perfectly than relationships.

Divorce can create a shift in many of the relationships in your life, because it is the demise of a significant love relationship, your marriage.  It takes time to deconstruct the experience of a marriage and rebuild our relationship confidence.

If you find that you are experiencing conflict and tension in a number of relationships in your life, the chances are that there is something deeper going on that deserves exploration.

• You are emotionally and financially healthy.

So, this is a biggie.  If you are not emotionally and financially healthy, it will be extremely difficult to attract and sustain an effortless, extraordinary relationship.

I don’t want you to misunderstand me, I recognize that you may not be financially abundant (yet!), but it is critical to be in control of your own financial life before you can share your life with someone new.  The same applies to emotional health.

Healthy relationships are built when the individuals in them are healthy.

If the ground beneath your feet is not yet stable, taking the time to build security in your life will be a key to unlocking the door to new love.

Having effortless, extraordinary love in your life is not only possible, but essential.  And it is yours for the taking when the time is right!

“I will never get married again…”

“I can’t even imagine going on a date…”

“I feel so old and unattractive…”

“How do you even meet people…”

“I don’t have time in my life for dating”

“I’m so ready for my next relationship…”

“There are no good men out there…”

I hear these statements over and over again from women who are going through and moving forward after divorce.  Any of these sound familiar to you?

So today we are going to have a lesson in “SEXpectations” or the expectations we all have about love after divorce or the ending of any relationship.

Whether you believe it or not, the following words will all have a significant role in your new life:  dating, romance, sex, intimacy, sensuality, passion and love. So, I am going to give you my thoughts about what each of them means in your journey towards designing your amazing new life:

Dating:   Dating is fun!  Yes, you heard me, dating should be and can be a blast when you have set expectations around it that allow you to enjoy the process.  You will not fall in love on a first date, nor will you know if he is the “right” fit for you immediately.  You will need time and shared experiences to determine that.  However, if you become curious about men and understanding who they really are, you are going to have a fabulous time!

Romance:  Romance is not just a part of dating, it is a “way of being” in any relationship.  It is not about flowers, chocolate or lingerie…it is a feeling state.  It is the way you feel about and pursue a new partner.  Romance is the journey of time and shared experiences that allow you to build a new partnership and intimacy.  Creating romance in your life is about creativity, selflessness and connecting to the loving parts of yourself.  It is an expression of who you are and how you feel about another person.

Sex:  What can I say about sex!  Sex is a critical part of life; and, it is fabulous, fun and FREE!  Sex after divorce can be scary and intimidating, especially if it was not a healthy part of your marriage.  However, sex can be, and should be, a wonderful and exciting part of your life, and relationship.  There are many different kinds of sex and we have the power to choose when, with whom, and in what way we have it as we create our new and empowered lives and relationships. What becomes important is know what you want and why so that you can make healthy and safe choices about your sexual life.  Sex becomes more fun and exciting as you reconnect to who you are and the woman you are meant to be!

Intimacy:  Intimacy is the growing closer and sharing experiences with someone.  It is being vulnerable, trusting and surrendering to the process of getting to know someone.  While it may feel scary, it takes courage and a commitment to being authentic and honest to experience true intimacy; and is at the core of growing a deep connection with your partner.

Sensuality:  “Sensuality is an enjoyment of the pleasure we receive through our five senses: sight, hearing, taste, smell and touch. Although each of these can be experienced in a sexual context, they can also be enjoyed in a totally non-sexual way.”  This is one of my favorite definitions of sensuality.  One of the most important parts of the journey through and after divorce is the reconnecting to your sensuality.  For some this is an uncomfortable process but one that will result in tremendous pleasure!

Passion: Passion is an energy that is created when you are doing and experiencing things that you love; and is experienced when the things you do are in alignment with the very core of who you are. What prevents so many from experiencing unbridled passion is not having clarity around what you love to do and be.  Passion can be found in the friendships you surround yourself with, the work that you do, the way in which you spend your time and attitude you choose to have.  When you are living a life you love, with passion and purpose, you will find that it will naturally become the foundation upon which a new relationship will be built.

Love:  Aaahhh, love!  Exceptional love is not only possible, but it is out there waiting for you when you choose to do whatever it takes to have it!  Despite popular belief, love doesn’t just happen; it is something we choose to create in our lives.  However, real love begins within ourselves and is created when we do the hard work of preparing ourselves for it!

Moving through and after divorce often creates feelings of doubt about the possibility of having and sustaining a real and extraordinary loving, passionate, sexy, and romantic relationship.

The truth is that no matter where you are and no matter what your past experience has been, love is out there, waiting for you!

So, where are you in your Love Journey?  Do you know what your SEXpectations are?  If not, now is the perfect time to give yourself the gift of getting clear and understanding what you want and exactly how to get it!

About a year after my divorce, I was fortunate to participate in Tony Robbins’ extraordinary program, Mastery University.  I would have to say that I went into this program reluctantly thinking, “I am not one of those people who needs to be told to think positive thoughts.” I wasn’t looking for motivation and certainly not a self-help guru.

What I really wanted was to figure out where I was going and what would come next. I felt sad, confused and completely overwhelmed by the enormity of the changes from the divorce and had no idea how to move forward.

It was actually my parents and brother who encouraged (actually pushed) me into registering for a “personal development program”. Looking back I think I was just the victim of an intervention!

It was by far the most uncomfortable thing I have ever done. I felt pathetic, scared and unable to understand why I was there. After all, I was fine. I just wanted to move forward and I didn’t need anyone’s help…I knew exactly what I needed to do.

The day I began Mastery University was the day that marked the true beginning of my new life.

The moment the program started, so did my tears. Tears, tears and more tears. I couldn’t imagine where they were all coming from. And as the tears flowed, I found the sadness and anger begin to leave my body. I began to breath, relax and open myself up to what would come next, not knowing at all what that would be.

Sometime over the next few days, we were asked to write about the blessings in our lives. My immediate reaction was that I have my children, my family, my health…beyond that I went blank.

At Tony Robbins events, there are many individuals available to support you through the exercises. One of these coaches saw that I wasn’t writing anymore and stopped to ask me how I was doing. I shared with him that I was recently divorced and trying to figure it all out. That I didn’t feel particularly “blessed”, but rather was grappling with all of the changes going on in my life, including sadness, anger, anxiety, and fear.

He asked me to use the remaining time to complete the sentence, “My divorce is a blessing because….”.

Hmmmm, what on earth was I supposed to do with this?  My divorce as a blessing?????

He told me to just keep writing…not to let my hand stop even if I thought I had nothing more to say. And so I did…and I haven’t stopped since.

Have you ever stopped to think about why or how your divorce is a blessing in your life?

I want to share with you just some of what I wrote that day, and a few of the reasons why my divorce is a blessing:

1.    The divorce journey taught me who I am and what I really want.
2.    I am able to live my truth, every day and in every way.
3.    I have learned to tap into the passion within me.
4.    I reclaimed who I am as a healthy and whole woman.
5.    I reconnected to the magnificence of ME!
6.    I rediscovered my sensuality and sexuality; opening the door to exploring my femininity.
7.    I stepped more fully and powerfully into my role as a mother.
8.    I learned how courageous and resilient I truly am.
9.    I discovered how strong I am.
10.  I became an exceptional communicator.
11.  I now know how to manage conflict and challenge, and have been able to  teach that to my children.
12.  I have deliberately created a new and fabulous life for myself.
13.  I now experience love in an entirely new, deep and amazing way.
14.  I found my life purpose.
15.  I took responsibility for who I am, good and bad, and learned how to become the person that I want to attract into my life.
16.  I learned how to forgive.
17.  I found grace, compassion and integrity.
18.  I discovered the power of choice.
19.  I no longer allow my emotions to control my words, actions and behavior.
20.  I took control of my destiny.
21.  I rediscovered joy and playfulness.
22.  I trust myself.
23.  I love myself.
24.  I believe in myself.

Does any of this sound familiar to you?

This is only the beginning of my list of blessings…I add to them all the time. This exercise has become my daily practice of gratitude…for all that I have and all that I am.

If you have not taken time to reflect on the blessings of your divorce, I hope you will take a few minutes to begin your list. Write even if you feel like you have nothing to say.

And if you are having difficulty in finding the blessings of this most significant transition, give me a call…we can do it together!

I would love to hear from you and have you share your list of blessings!

I have a new friend.  Her name is Monique Honaman and we are absolutely “soul sisters”!  I came upon Monique while I was doing research for my second book which I am having a fantastic time writing! (Stay tuned for more information!!).  After connecting with her on the phone and yet again, feeling like we could talk for hours, she graciously sent me a copy of her new book, “The High Road Has Less Traffic:  honest advice on the path through love and divorce” .  It is fantastic!

I asked Monique if she would be willing to share a little about herself with us and so today I am excited to introduce her to you through this wonderful post about her journey through divorce.  I highly recommend her book as yet another tool in your toolbox of divorce support!!

From Monique:

I’m currently attending a conference in Las Vegas with over 3000 other women. The conference has absolutely nothing to do with divorce, or marriage, or relationships.  It has everything to do with women business owners … smart, motivated, capable, gutsy, risk-taking women who at some point in their lives took an idea and ran with it … and today are women presidents in charge of their own destiny!  It’s ‘girl power’ at its most basic element!

 Like any great women in business conference, there is a ton of time devoted to networking … and like a great group of women go-getters who have never met a stranger … the conversations quickly turn from summarizing our professional lives, and turn to sharing our personal stories.

As soon as I mention that I love to write and recently published a book, “The High Road Has Less Traffic: honest advice on the path through love and divorce” I immediately find myself in conversations that I shouldn’t be surprised by anymore. As soon as I mention that my book is based on life lessons learned during my own divorce, I hear all about their divorces as well. It shouldn’t surprise me that many of the women I am meeting are in second marriages. I shouldn’t surprise me that many women joke about having had a ‘starter husband’ as divorce has become so commonplace in our society. It shouldn’t surprise me that these women are full of joy, confidence and happiness having survived, and thrived, through one of life’s toughest emotional battles!

The common theme I am hearing is one which I have been known to say in reflecting back on my own divorce: “I wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy, but in hindsight, it’s the best thing that ever happened to me.”  Divorce is ugly; it’s hateful; it’s painful; it’s rejection at it’s most basic form; it breaks families apart; it takes marriage vows and tears them to shreds; it reduces essentially good people to become people with low moral standards and values.   So how can this horrible thing become something which so many of these wonderful women reflect back on as ‘the best thing that ever happened’ to them?

The common theme I saw was that these women ‘took the high road’ and as painful and hurtful as their divorces were, they were determined to not get stuck in a pity party, looking backwards saying ‘what if’ and ‘if only,’ and instead chose to march forward to determine what adventures lay on the horizon.  These women all chose to let go of all the anger and bitterness which divorce naturally creates, and instead chose to take on a positive attitude. They chose to cast aside blame and hate, find forgiveness, even find some humor in the situation, and decide that forward momentum was the only way to go. All of this behavior characterizes ‘taking the high road’ and I’ve determined this factor alone is the deciding factor in women who survive divorce versus those who thrive after divorce and move on.

I love that feeling, that energy and that edge when you get a group of powerful women together.  There’s a sense that we are invincible and while we will encounter obstacles (life happens, right?), that we will be able to overcome, persevere, and turn lemons into lemonade.   It’s funny the conversations you get into at a women’s business conference. I love that we are open enough to share our personal stories with strangers at a professional venue. We aren’t alone in handling the bumps of life. Many others have been through this before us and sharing our stories, helping others to move forward, is what girl power is all about!

Monique Honaman is the author of “The High Road Has Less Traffic: honest advice on the path through love and divorce” available on Amazon.com or at www.HighRoadLessTraffic.com.  Monique has survived and thrived and has made it her purpose to encourage others to take the high road where there is always less traffic! She can be reached at Monique@HighRoadLessTraffic.com;  Twitter: @highroadthebook; Facebook:  www.Facebook.com/highroadlesstraffic.

Happy belated July 4th!

So, here we are. Last week marked the halfway point of 2011 and what felt like the official start of summer with the long July 4th weekend.

I don’t know about you, but I found myself in a bit of a funk over the holiday weekend this year.

For whatever reason, my weekend had no “mojo”!  And as I took time to sit with my funkiness and reflect on why I was feeling this way, I was once again reminded of the long lasting effect that divorce on our lives.

I spent last Friday in the car driving my youngest son to a lacrosse tournament in Long Island where at the end of the tournament Saturday, my Ex took my son and returned home where he would have my kids for the balance of the weekend.

I tried to stay an extra night in the hopes that I could have a lovely holiday beach day on Sunday, but Mother Nature prevailed and I headed home only to find myself cleaning the house and doing the mundane tasks of laundry, grocery shopping, and errands….mostly feeling sorry for myself that I didn’t have anything “fun” to do!

I am fortunate to be in a relationship with a wonderful man but this was a funk that he didn’t create, nor was capable of or responsible for getting me out of. As he went about doing some of the things he loves (fishing, gardening…), I found myself feeling extremely sad.

Have you ever felt this way?

By Sunday night I had spent some time writing and was beginning to realize exactly what was going on. July 4th, Independence Day, symbolizes not only a weekend of family get-togethers and BBQ’s, but for me, an emphasis on freedom, independence and my right to live the life I imagine and deserve.

This year, with my children as teenagers and only having them half a week, I have been feeling not only their growing independence, but the resulting decrease in time that I see them, coupled with the recognition that the “right” to create my extraordinary life is sometimes daunting and frightening.

Divorce creates a tremendous amount of freedom, but that freedom can feel overwhelming and frightening.

An entire weekend to create fun and fabulous experiences and celebrations, and I had not planned one thing!!!  Well, shame on me!

After my divorce, many of my friendships changed.  Families I once shared holidays with no longer extended invitations to family and holiday get togethers.  My changing social life has required that I open myself up to new friendships and become the iniater of gatherings and celebrations. 

When my children are with me, I am more inspired to create holiday and social plans.   Without them over the July 4th weekend, I suddenly found myself without them or social plans, and I have to admit, I was feeling a bit lonely.  In fact, I was in a absolute FUNK!

Since my divorce, every so often something will trigger that sad, empty and lonely feeling that inevitably causes me to fall into a funk.   I immediately know when I have fallen into the  FUNK,  however happily, I have learned how and know exactly what to do to get myself right out of it!

So, I immediately took action!  I woke up on Monday morning, took a long and wonderful run outside, called a friend so that we could get together and enjoy the sunny day, and then she and I went out for a delicious bloody mary and steamers!

It is all about knowing what to do when we find ourselves in a funk …a funk that can cause us to remain stuck where we are…even paralyzing us from taking action.

Creating “what comes next” is not always easy, but it is ALWAYS in our control!

If you are finding yourself stuck in the sadness and fear, you are not alone.  However, you don’t have to remain there…there are great tools and strategies for pulling yourself right out of it!

If you have been feeling stuck in a funk, I hope you will consider my Summer Coaching Special so that you too can create the life you desire!!!

Spending time over last weekend with a group of women all with the desire to write a book and supporting each other to share their gifts and talents with the world, got me thinking about who I choose to surround myself with on a daily basis.

I have always enjoyed being part of a community.

And, it started early for me.

I grew up in a wonderful neighborhood and in particular, lived on a street where in the house next door, across the street and further down the street lived kids exactly the same ages as my brother and I.

We were a “pack” and spent endless hours playing outside together.  Us “girls” formed a secret club where we spent our time making secret handbooks and holding secret meetings.  It was a special group and we remain in touch even today.

As I grew older I continued to find myself part of all kinds of communities.

Eventually all of us on the street grew into our own passions and activities, spending less and less time together as a “pack”.  However, soon after I found myself part of a talented group of girls, my ballet performance troupe, and it was in this incredible community that I spent most of my youth.

Through high school, and college, my interests, areas of study and roommates provided me with safe, welcoming and comfortable communities.  Being part of something, belonging, allowed me to enjoy my life.

When I got married, I moved back to my hometown, where although comfortable having grown up there, I didn’t really know anyone living there as an adult.   So, I immediately got involved in my Synagogue and Jewish community.  My ex-husband is an avid golfer and we found ourselves joining the country club where we did much of our socializing.  When my children were born, it was easy to connect to communities.  There were all of the parent communities…pre-school, elementary school, athletics….it was easy to connect around these shared experiences.  I even had a book club with a bunch of moms from my kids’ elementary school.

But then came my divorce.

And I no longer seemed to fit into these communities anymore.

And the people vanished.

They didn’t call anymore.  Invitations to social and special events stopped altogether.  I felt like I was no longer welcome.

But, where did they go?

I was still a member of the synagogue.

My kids still went to the same schools.

I still shuttled my kids around to all of their activities and sports.

And I still liked to read.

Yet everything was different.  I felt completely alone and isolated from any kind of community.  I felt like I didn’t “belong” anywhere anymore.

Have you ever felt this way?

I hated feeling isolated and alone.  I am a person who thrives on relationships and community and now all my relationships were changing and I no longer fit in where I once did.

What I learned is that divorce, unlike death,  job loss, or parenting issues, does not build or invite community, rather it can break it down.  We come together in support of someone dealing with the death of a loved one, we surround people who have lost their jobs with support and we reach out to comfort parents who are dealing with difficult parenting issues.

But where is the community when we announce that our marriage is ending?

This loss of belonging is one of the major reasons that I started the D Spot…to create a community of women who all have the shared experience of divorce, whatever stage they are in.

Looking back I realize that I truly didn’t belong in some of those communities and although at the time I mourned their loss, I am grateful to have been set free to create new, empowering and supportive communities  for myself.

Surrounding myself with groups of friends, family and colleagues that are founded on consistent, honest and authentic relationships is critical to my journey as a woman.

I love the many and varied communities that I am a part of.  They each and all nurture me in different ways.  Some are personal and some are professional.  And because of them all, I know that I am never alone.

What communities are you a part of that no longer serve you?

Do you open yourself to opportunities to create or join new communities?

Have you ever experienced your brain going a mile a minute in a million different directions? Well, that is what I am experiencing as I sit here writing to you.

Last weekend I was at a writer’s conference produced by Hay House. I was offered this program by a new friend of mine, Nancy Levin, with whom I connected on Facebook. Nancy is AWESOME! She reached out to me as a Facebook friend because she has just gone through a long and painful divorce and wanted to connect.

I couldn’t be more thrilled that she did.

First of all, we are going to be fantastic friends for life because as it happens, we have so much in common as women. Second, Nancy is extraordinary poet. As we talked about our lives, our journeys through divorce, and our dreams and visions, she shared with me that she has just released her first book of poems. Called “Writing for my Life: Reclaiming the Lost Pieces of Me”, Nancy’s poems take you through the journey of her divorce. As you are moving through or forward after divorce, you will be able to appreciate the meaning and emotion behind the words. You can find Nancy and her book here.

Lastly, Nancy and I share a passion and desire to support women going through the transition of divorce and believe we were meant to meet each other and do great things! So, I’m sure that you will hear much more from us as we harness our passion and energy over the next months!

Anyway, the writer’s conference was fabulous! I went with my mother because as some of you may be aware, we are working on a book together and we were eager to get as much information as possible about the process we are about to embark on.  What I didn’t expect was to be energized in so many ways by spending two days with a fabulous group of women and educators.  This was my first time at a writer’s conference and I learned so much…about myself, the art and craft of writing, and the power of new experiences.

There were probably 300 women there and it was awesome connecting with all of these fantastic, creative and soulful gals! Even more exciting was that Cheryl Richardson spoke and shared her journey as an author.   Many of you know that I LOVE her book The Art of Extreme Self Care and think you should all go and get a copy of it!  Best of all,  I had the pleasure of spending a few minutes with her after the event!

She is as lovely in person as she is on TV, radio, in print… If you don’t know Cheryl or her many incredible books, you can find out more about her at her site.

Although I almost didn’t go because I was so tired going into the weekend, had so much to do at home, and it was hard to clear two full days to be away…I made a commitment to myself that I would do it anyway!! And I am so happy I did!!! I made a few wonderful new friends and enjoyed sharing the entire experience with my mom!  Stay tuned for our book writing journey…it will be quite a ride!!

I have a new friend…and I LOVE her!  Her name is Ellie Scarborough and she is my kind of girl!  When I first discovered Ellie I was surfing the web (which I find myself doing quite a bit) and browsing through the websites of women that inspire me.  While surfing, I came upon her logo and it was love at first site!

She is the founder (with her partner Amy Lynch)  of Pink Kisses, one of the most fabulous sites I have seen in a long time!   No, Ellie is not divorced, but she knows what breakups are all about.  And, let’s face it…divorce is the ultimate breakup!

The mission of Pink Kisses is simple…To help women forget their Ex and find their inner badass.  Amen Sister!  I am all about the inner badass!  In fact, I adore their tagline…”moving on is the best revenge”, because I could not agree more.

I immediately sent her an email begging to talk so that we could connect an swap stories of moving on and reinvention.  She called me almost instantaneously and immediately we knew we would become great friends!

When I told her that I thought her logo was great, she introduced me to “Betty”!  Betty is their mascot and as Ellie explained, she is “a mix of sugar, spice, and everything nice…with a tiny little hint of scandal. That’s how Betty was born. Nobody knows where she’s from, and nobody knows her last name, but everybody who’s laid eyes on her knows she’s freaking fantastic. We’re not sure how old she is or how many hearts she’s broken, but she’s funny and smart and sassy and cool and she could probably take you down to Chinatown in an arm-wrestling competition. She’s 100 percent bad@ss and we love her. When you find yourself in a bind, thinking about calling up your ex, just ask yourself this very important question:

“What would Betty do?”

Fabulous, right?

What I love so much about Ellie and her business is her commitment to making women feel good at a time when they are struggling.  She shared with me that the intention of Pink Kisses is to change women’s live by helping them to recognize their own strength and accept their independence as part of a big, awesome adventure.  I couldn’t get enough of her!

As you probably know, I refer to this adventure as the journey and we spent almost an hour talking about are own adventures and all that has come into our lives as a result of our breakups.

Yes, divorce is a different kind of breakup and when there are children involved, it is a whole new ballgame.  Ellie couldn’t imagine how it felt to go through a divorce, especially when there are children involved, and she made me feel like the most courageous and amazing woman in the world!

The company’s signature service, The Betty Action Plan, serves that purpose by sending an email  around lunchtime everyday with an action step to take the focus off the Ex and put it squarely where it belongs: on helping a girl find her inner badass.

I have taken advantage of the Betty Action Plan and it rocks!  Getting a fabulous email everyday devoted to ME and my moving on adventure is awesome…and provides just the right amount of inspiration and motivation to focus on the most important part of breaking up…reinventing ourselves!

Ladies of the D Spot…., meet Ellie and Pink Kisses, you’re gonna love them!!!